The Cup

As my day comes to a close my thoughts refrain to cease , but it's a familiar comfort , an opportunity if you will, to put in text in transition of my mind . much has come to realization in present time , as they do I have these small blocks of experiences resulting in a body from mind evaluations of situations , trying make out the purpose the meaning , searching for the blind truth , I myself like many others at times feel the void and we tend to create a fantasy that only deepens that feeling , maybe we focus too much on the wrong things to full fill that absence that has over powered and disconnected us from our own energy , in turn distorting your current reality , I try to see my life and just life it self and others existants, with in a spherical train of thinking this helps my perspective of comprehension , So as I feel that I am half empty, that there is a void , the reasons of me feeling this way are the same for everyone else on every single level of positions , meaning someone with less may value more of the smaller things but fantasize about things they may not have like possessions , and the other side of that one may be in abundant of another's fantasy , but may still feel that exact feeling of something missing . Naturally this is part of our nature of thinking because our environment or maybe It is a gift that we have to be forever seeking in our minds to feel a balance our cup must be half full and half empty in the middle of this is where we find ourselves where we find our purpose , validation of our own being , in the mist of this madness and confusion and fantasy , my avoidance of what is and what is to be has led me to a better understanding of my "cup" and I have the power to fill it with balance and not to over engage with my actions of over indulgent's into fictional destinations of mind and being , I take my ability to see and let it keep me , though the battle rages on I am dexterous, my quick witted mental can only prevail. I am my cup of I am .  .....and then there's the heart ..........................................          A.M.